I got an email today from Writing.com informing me that my poem “Northland Religion” had received a comment. I had completely forgotten that Writing.com existed, that I had a profile, and the existence of the three items I had posted to that profile. I recognized the tiny, six line poem when I read it:
Make it ten-thousand and one / for that little lake of tears / that baptized me / with reflections of the forest / and of the sun / and of the cloudless dome.
Simple, shabby, tangled in the language of my struggle to deal with loss of faith, and utterly forgotten, this poem had still reached someone who “really liked” it, a fellow Minnesotan who thanked me for its creation.
Although I’ve never completely given up on poetry, I know very well by now that creative fiction isn’t my realm. Sometimes I feel like I’m betraying my old dreams; I was going to be a novelist and change the world with my ideas and my sparkling prose. Sometimes it feels like settling to devote myself to the study of other people’s genius–“those that can’t do, teach” and all. Yet I lack not only the aptitude but the patience and interest for writing prose, and I am passionate about academic English. And now I find, when the ghost of ambition rattles her chains, that I can quiet her with silvers of approbation like today’s unexpected comment and go on, quite happily, in the less glorious path I am pleased to have chosen.